it's steadily getting worse;

it's steadily getting worse
like a water dam ready to burst
and drown the surrounding towns
dimming the flickering
lights of my life.

disappointment fills my chest
peaking with a lump
in the hollow of my neck
as i feel the strain of being ashamed.

it's my fault, i know
but for all the wrong reasons
as the connections between neurons
no longer flow
as they should.

maybe i am not cut out for this
maybe it is out of my league
maybe i need to embark on a new path
and foster a new destination.