lifted;

it's over now
and the heavy weight
that laid on my chest and heart
suffocating me slowly
has finally lifted.

caramel;

it doesn't matter how small they are
when their time comes
and they must leave us
the pain that comes along
it is just as great.

we do the best we can to ease their pains
to let them pass on through the veil
with as much comfort as possible.

and though we may cry
shedding many tears of sadness
we know deep down in our hearts
that they are free and without pain
they are frolicking in the vast green fields
and where food is plentiful and delicious
in their own private heaven.

and for us they will wait
just as we did for them in life.

goodbye, caramel.
i love you.

let's live it;

the shrieks and shouts
of childhood laughter
carry on outside like a musical symphony
that every person has once experienced
some, a year ago
others, fifty

the sound of joy
that now whispers
like a beloved memory
our minds may have forgotten
those carefree days
but our hearts will never forget

our very souls alight with happiness
whenever it hears those beautiful sounds
we must live fully, live happily, live positively
we only have this one chance
at this beautiful entity called life

let's live it
and never regret.

subway;

sitting on the subway
watching the scenery fly by
going seventy miles an hour
she'll be there in no time.

people watching to pass the time
the little toddler babbling happily
pointing at her colorful book
gesturing about things her mother only knows.

the elderly man at the front of the train car
flipping the pages of his worldly magazine
contemplative, with the hint of a smile
as he catches up on the latest news.

college students
one furiously flipping through note cards
no doubt, cramming for that impending test
another dozing off, head nodding, mouth slightly agape
leaning on the window, obviously foregoing the snooze button.

and then the train's horn, signaling another stop
automatic female voice dictating the destination.

it's her stop now.

private little word;

headphones on
foot tapping to the beat
coffee on the left
cardigan hanging on the seat
eyes scanning the pages
words blur, pictures play
dreams dance across the stage
in a private little world.

it was a rainy morning;

it was a rainy morning. and i was up with you early in the day, holding you close, your little body curled up against mine as i stroked the wills of death away. i had a test that afternoon, and i hated the though of leaving you, even for a minute. i knew in my heart when i wrapped you up in one of my old shirts, i would not see you alive that evening.

i kissed you goodbye, and left you at home, while i took the agonizingly long ride to school. i aced the exam, of course. and by midday, the clouds and raindrops all but disappeared from the sky, leaving behind a brilliant cerulean blue. all signs of the storm that raged the early morning hours were gone.

and then i knew, you must have finally said goodbye to our corporeal world. heaven opened its arms and welcomed you in. your pain and suffering were washed away with the rain. a rainbow painted the sky, and i knew, you were now at peace.

i said my final goodbyes, wishing you well in the afterlife.

life;

even when life ends
the world will still go on
time will continue without a break.

and the legacies we leave behind
one way or another
they will impact the world
some small, others on immense scale.

life is the most precious gift
live every moment to its fullest.